What if your most troubling fantasies are actually the key to wholeness?
The ones you've never told anyone. The ones that contradict everything you believe in. The ones embodying the desires and feelings you've been taught to suppress at all costs.
You're not broken. You're not a bad feminist. You're not secretly fucked up.
You're standing at the threshold of transformation.
The Erotic Alchemy Experience
21 days to speak the unspeakable, embrace your hidden desires, and transform your sexual shadow into gold.
This is where you stop fighting your sexual shadow and start befriending it.
Where you discover that the fantasies making you uncomfortable aren't evidence of damage - they're doorways to self-knowledge.
Where you learn to hold your politics AND your pleasure without your head exploding.
INVESTMENT: Only $33
STARTS: Friday Nov 28th 5pm GMT
DOORS CLOSE: Friday Nov 28th 4pm GMT
In 21 days, you'll:
🔥 Befriend your sexual shadow - the hidden urges and hungers that show up in your fantasies
🔮 Discover your erotic archetypes through live group Tarot reading
🗺️ Map your Internal Sexual System (the victim, the villain, and everyone else) and discover their unique gifts
⚗️ Master Emotional Alchemy - transmuting emotional pain into erotic pleasure
🧭 Feel the difference between inherited shame and internal boundaries
🕯️ Learn how eroticizing oppression can help us heal - and how to do it ethically
🌊 Develop self-consent and somatic techniques to stay grounded as you explore your erotic edge
🌈 Become integrated - shadows embraced, power reclaimed.
Are you ready to meet all of yourself?
I know what it takes to even consider something like this.
Maybe you've never acknowledged these fantasies out loud. Maybe you've barely admitted them to yourself. The idea of exploring this territory - even in a private group - might be making your heart race right now.
That's not a sign you shouldn't do this. That's a sign this could be the biggest untapped reservoir of energy you have yet to explore.
Every program I run is trauma-informed, completely confidential, and specifically designed for people who've never had a safe place before to explore these parts of themselves.
- Shame-free space: I've been working with taboo turn-ons and kinky sexuality for twenty years, and have explored much of my own erotic underground. Whatever arouses you, I will never judge.
- Trauma-informed approach: The slow way is the fast way. We take little nibbles, not huge bites. You set your own pace. There's no pressure to do anything you don't want to, or to share anything you're not ready to share.
- Consent at every step: Every practice is optional. You participate at the level that feels right for you. You can lurk, listen, observe - whatever you need. That said, the more you engage, the more profound a transformation you can unlock.
- Complete confidentiality: What happens in the group stays in the group. We're all in this together. Our Telegram Temple is a private, sacred space. No taking screengrabs, o gossiping, no judgment. When I ask for your feedback at the end of the program, I'll ask your consent and protect your identity before sharing any testimonials.
- Somatic grounding: I'll guide you through regulation techniques so you can stay resourced and grounded as you explore your edge. This isn't about recklessly pushing through discomfort - it's about expanding our capacity with compassion and care.
Over two decades I've held space for thousands of people navigating their sexual shadows. I know how to create containers where vulnerability feels possible - and where even your most hidden dimensions are met with understanding, empathy, and love.
Why trust me with this?
You're contemplating doing some of the most vulnerable inner work there is. You deserve to know who's holding the container.
I'm Blake - and I've been exactly where you are now.
I grew up in a Christian household and got almost no sex education at school. I spent years wrestling with my taboo fantasies: fantasies that contradicted my feminist politics, my ethics, my idea of who I was supposed to be. I tried to suppress them, but it only made them more powerful and drove them underground, where they spilled out in dysfunctional relationships and self-destructive patterns.
I've been on a lifetime journey of embracing and integrating my desires, and learning to act on them in a way that honours my boundaries and sits right with my values.
This is the missing link which most healing paths don't include: and it holds tremendous power for transformation.
Just a few of my professional credentials:
- Certified Somatic Trauma Practitioner (Somatopia) - I understand how trauma moves through the body and how to work with it safely
- Certified Trauma-informed Facilitator (Cuddle Party) trained to hold transformational group containers working with vulnerability, intimacy, and desire
- Consent for Touch Professionals Certification (School of Consent) - deep training in consent frameworks and boundaries
- 20 years as a sex worker and BDSM educator, and award-winning feminist porn director holding space for thousands of clients and performers to feel safe to express their sexuality in new ways (working as "Pandora Blake")
- International speaker and expert on porn, sex work and BDSM - I've lectured at the Royal Academy, delivered training to UK government departments, and changed UK law through legal campaigning
- Author of 'Unspeakable Fantasies' - my book guiding people through this exact process of integrating our values with the erotic fantasies that make us uncomfortable (coming out next year)
- Deeply versed in Jungian shadow work, Internal Family Systems, and attachment theory - the theoretical foundations that make this work transformational
But honestly? My most important qualification is that I've lived this. I've written the textbook - but this course is me sharing from the heart. I know this territory because I've walked every inch of it.
What you'll receive
✨ 4 Live Coaching Sessions plus bonus Winter Solstice Integration Call
▶️ Full access to all recordings so you can catch up if you can't make it live
💬 Private Telegram Temple - Daily practices, voice guidance, and a sacred container for vulnerability
📖 The Erotic Alchemy Workbook - Deep reflection prompts to support your integration
🤝 Community support from fellow travelers sharing the journey
What we're doing together
Week 1: Descent
Friday 28 November (5pm GMT, 12pm EST, 9am PST)
We begin by acknowledging the unspeakable. Repressed emotions and buried hungers live on in the dark underbelly of our psyche, and they come out in your most troubling fantasies - and if you don’t take care, in dysfunctional behaviours. This is your sexual shadow. I’ll show you how to meet it and contain it with curiosity, consciousness, and compassion.
This is where you learn you’re not alone.
Week 2: Divination
Thursday 4 December (5pm GMT, 12pm EST, 9am PST)
We delve into the subconscious. I’ll do a tarot reading to reveal the shadow archetypes present in the group field. What archetypes show up in your eroticism - the Victim, the Villain, the Saviour, the Sacred Whore, the Feral One, the Innocent? All the characters in your taboo fantasies are parts of you. We’ll map your Internal Sexual System and befriend the disowned parts you've been refusing to acknowledge. What secret gifts do they have to offer?
This is where secret truths are revealed.
Week 3: Alchemy
Thursday 11 December (5pm GMT, 12pm EST, 9am PST)
The crucible. When we consciously engage with our erotic shadow we can transmute painful experiences into erotic power. Learn how to turn unpleasant emotions into aphrodisiacs, and how to use sexual fantasy to process stressful experiences. We’ll explore the risks and ethics of eroticising oppression and collective trauma, and how violating our most deeply held taboos can help us heal.
This is the core transformation.
Week 4: Embodiment
Thursday 18 December (5pm GMT, 12pm EST, 9am PST)
The erotic mind is seated in the body. I’ll guide you through somatic practices for discerning self-consent, telling the difference between inherited shame and an internal red flag, and staying in control as you delve deeper. Learn how to trust your body’s wisdom and remain grounded as you explore your edge.
This is where it becomes real.
Bonus: Integration
Sunday 21 December • Winter Solstice (5pm GMT, 12pm EST, 9am PST)
As we honour the midwinter darkness on the longest night of the year, we honour our inner darkness and the mysteries it holds. You’ll create a personal practice for ongoing integration and staying connected to all your parts. A closing tarot reading will help us set intentions for the year ahead - shadows embraced, power reclaimed.
This is where you step through the portal.
What makes this different
This isn't sex-critical feminism (we're not here to police your fantasies)
This isn't 'anything goes' sex positivity (complexity is where the magic lives)
This isn't apolitical self-help (though it will help you plenty)
This is a mystical, embodied, erotic integration journey that treats your sexuality as sacred - shadows and all.
We're weaving together:
- Jungian shadow work
- Somatic trauma therapy
- Internal Family Systems applied specifically to the sexual shadow (groundbreaking)
- Tarot as a tool for accessing the unconscious (no-one else is doing this for group sexuality work - it's going to be wild)
- Decolonial social justice politics
- Two decades of my experience as a kinky sex worker, educator, and fellow traveler.
This is for you if...
✓ You fantasize about violence, coercion, or helplessness and feel conflicted about it
✓ You're kinky (or curious) but worry your desires are "self-destructive" or harmful
✓ You've tried to "just not have" certain fantasies (spoiler: it didn't work)
✓ You feel torn between your politics and your pleasure - as if you can have one or the other, but not both
✓ You wonder if your fantasies mean you secretly want terrible things to happen for real
✓ You're ready to embrace complexity, ambiguity, and a little discomfort
✓ You're willing to show up with curiosity and compassion for yourself and others
✓ You want to explore shadow work in a container that's trauma-informed, sex-positive, and grounded in anti-oppression politics.
People of all genders, sexualities, and orientations are welcome.
This is NOT for you if...
✗ You're looking for someone to tell you which fantasies are "good" or "bad"
✗ You want permission to act on your desires without regard for consent or consequences
✗ You're looking for shortcuts or easy answers instead of genuine integration.
Why this goes deeper than anything else
Most sexuality coaching stays at the surface: communication skills, technique, anatomy.
This work goes to the root - where your sexuality intersects with your psyche, your shadow, your trauma, your wholeness.
We're not just talking about kink.
We're talking about profound psychological integration through the portal of your erotic self.
This is therapy. This is shadow work. This is reclamation.
And it happens to be fucking hot.
What happens if you don't do this
The thing is, unexamined sexual shadow doesn't just sit there quietly. It spills out.
It shows up in the patterns you can't seem to break - the dysfunctional relationship dynamics, the self-sabotage that appears out of nowhere, the unexplained internal blocks disconnecting you from your fierceness and unapologetic power.
Shame drains your energy. And living with that inner conflict, that lack of resolution - it affects everything.
Your creativity. Your relationships. Your capacity for intimacy and connection. Your ability to take up space in the world.
When part of you is locked in the shadows, you're operating at a fraction of your potential. You're spending energy on suppression that could be going toward creation. You're dimming your light to keep something hidden.
Integration isn't just about your sex life. It's about becoming whole.
The fact that you're even reading this tells me something about you. You're someone who's willing to look at the uncomfortable stuff. Someone who knows that the way forward isn't around the shadow - it's through it.
That takes real courage. And here's what I've learned in twenty years of doing this work:
The people who are most scared are often the ones who experience the most profound transformation.
Why now? Why December?
Because the darkest time of year is perfect for shadow work.
Because you're tired of waiting until you feel "ready" (you never will).
Because the new year is coming and you're done bringing unintegrated shadow into another twelve months.
Because we're ending on the Winter Solstice - the moment when darkness peaks and the light begins to return. That's when you'll claim your integrated self and step into 2026 as someone who no longer fears their own erotic depths.
INVESTMENT: Only $33
STARTS: Friday Nov 28th 5pm GMT
DOORS CLOSE: Friday Nov 28th 4pm GMT
I know - I'm insanely undercharging for the value I'm giving. I want as many people as possible to experience how powerful this work is. From January, I'll be charging 10x more.
Ready? Let's do this.
Blake Becoming (they/them)
Kinky educator • Sex worker • Shadow alchemist
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